Patterns...

I'm noticing a lot lately that the "normal" patterns of my life haven't been being followed and so I'm adjusting a lot lately and embracing that things don't stay the same. This is something that maybe I've noticed before in a smaller way but now it's just hitting me.

I'm used to being back in St. Louis at this time of the year, and spending time at my favourite parks there, seeing my students at least weekly but often daily, struggling with saving money so I can make it back to India, meeting friends of many years for great conversations over lunch, or over a snack, or at a movie or for a walk in the park, etc.

I'm used to the patter of being in India for the winter and heading back there at the very beginning of spring and seeing the things change, the flowers starting to bloom, the relationships come out into the open and the days getting longer.

To teaching my weekly park class and meeting tons of new people there, being the centre of attention is not usually my favourite thing but in this class I always felt it was more of a group effort and we got to hang out after and eat some great food, take walks, enjoy the weather, etc.

To having my family be a short drive away and getting to hang out with them. To many things. Many things that I'm not experiencing right now.

Now, I'm not bitching about it. I'm just observing that there are some different feelings going on in my body this year, but now I've started to understand why I felt different.

I love India and the regular grouping of people that I'm usually here with are none of them here, but there are some great people here who I've enjoyed getting to know. Many of whom have made me some great breakfasts, dinners, shared meals with where someone else is making the food, and always had great conversations, that is a given here. We are all lined up within our ashtanga practice and so have that shorthand without having to explain things to each other, because we all get it.

It's a great time with the weather too, raining often in the evening, but that keeps the temperatures down and its cool and great sleeping. I'm actually loving it and wouldn't change a thing. I've just been having feeling of certain things that I'd just noticed are usually there this time of year that are not there this time of year, many of which I listed above, but there are many more that I've just not given a name too.

My life is in an interesting shift and I'm going with the flow of whatever is coming around the corner...