I love you and just wanted to put it in writing. I know you know how I feel now that you've left your body and are soaring in spirit. You did the very best with the tools and influences you were given and I will miss you. "The women in our family," as was our private joke so often (because they're such big worry worts) will miss you being here with them in your physical body much more than I, for I know that there is so much more to you. The full expression of your spirit is so much larger than the very little bit of it that squeezed into that body to keep it animated, and that I will always have contact with and will talk to and embrace on those times I do miss your physical presence. May you poke me here and there with little insights or reminders when I am less than noble in my behaviour and may the peace you feel now make all that struggle at the last part of your life worth it. How blessed am I and my sister and her two kids and Connie's kids for having even known you! Most people don't have an opportunity to know and care for their grandparents. How blessed am I to have been influenced by you, who always had such a strong love and sense of family and may I learn from that as I embark on my life path and grow with my new spiritual beliefs along with the family, including them, not excluding them as I often have.
Thanks. You were one great man and I shall love you always. Sat Nam!!!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
New Year
Hmmm, been a long time since I posted. Life has been changing and growing, like it always is, but I'm actually observing it happening these days. Rather than letting it happen and catching it a bit late lol!
In December I went to Lake Wales, Florida, to attend the Winter Solstice celebration put on by the 3HO organization, or the kundalini yoga people if you'd rather. I actually did a service scholarship so for a reduced fee I got to attend things as well as work my ass off to pay for the part I did not do! lol
And yes, lots of work it was. Inner and outer. I carried luggage a lot, from peoples cars to their cabins or tenting area and then in reverse. Which is all waaay more physical work than I do normally at home, anyone who knows me knows this to be true! So that in an of itself was a challenge. I also got to bond with some of the best people I've met in years, on said luggage crew, but also at the camp with those not on the luggage crew during meals, during early morning sadhana (and early is the truth, 3:45am, including chanting, a kundalini yoga set, another hour of singing/chanting a specific set of mantras in a specific order and then visiting the gurdwara to finish up), during white tantric yoga and many other activities.
The crux of the event is the 3 days of white tantric yoga. Previously I had only done one full day of the event in Chicago last April and one full day in Knoxville in October, both of which I had met people who were here for the the solstice event as well. 3 days is intense, to say the least, but is so much more than the one day in a myriad of ways. Each day was a different program, mostly sitting exercises, for 62 minutes or 31 minutes, one included a two hour nap, timed and a certain song played for it and the biggie; a 3 hour blind walk. Google it, I don't have the time or energy to explain it, just thinking about it is wearing me out! Ha!
All of this work affects you energetically and internally of course, and unfolds things within you over a 40 day period. I have quit drinking and eating most meats, and have been eating healthier and keeping up with a strong early morning sadhana of my own and hatha yoga and kundalini yoga almost daily, so that allows the energy movement to be freer and cleanse you of things no longer needed, subconsciously, much more easily. The time in April I still drank a bit and so wasn't as clean and had some major emotional goings on, to say the least. But this unfolding is interesting in that its intense but more smooth.
I feel like I'm completely changing and growing into a new person. My thoughts are moving in ways they never have before. They are more open, less judgmental and inclusive of things I never considered options before. I will be more specific on that once the unfolding slows down and I figure out exactly where I'm going in life. The thought of moving has always been there, but now I feel as if I'm finally ready. The idea of loving has always been there, but now I'm open to it and finding it around every corner from every person I encounter, just open hearted love and peace when met eye to eye. I feel more and more that I must share all this with others, and so exude the love and peace while I teach my hatha classes and am including some more of the kundalini type meditations to build the energy individually for my current students. I want them all to be happy and peaceful. I want to be more in touch with family and friends than ever before and just love them all unconditionally.
There is so much more swirling around in there, all good stuff, that I want to share but need more time to allow them to flow thru me first and figure some things out.
This year is amazing already, but is only going to get more amazing as it opens up and becomes more energized and free flowing and unlocks us more and more toward the Aquarian age. We are already feeling the intensity of the energy of that age unfolding all around us, within us, and hopefully I/we can all help one another as it builds more and more and grows us into who we really are---little balls of light wrapped up tight in these flesh packages. Little bits of divine energy! Look into peoples eyes, you will see it there, or not, that fire, those burning white irises, the color lightening, the intensity of their gaze.
Take a look at this little window a great friend of mine sent me on facebook, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3zJm98UXzQ , good stuff.
Think about it. But not too much, more importantly, feel it. Feel yourself and let those feeling unfold you into who you really are. Are you with me?!?
Sat Nam, Sat Inder Singh
In December I went to Lake Wales, Florida, to attend the Winter Solstice celebration put on by the 3HO organization, or the kundalini yoga people if you'd rather. I actually did a service scholarship so for a reduced fee I got to attend things as well as work my ass off to pay for the part I did not do! lol
And yes, lots of work it was. Inner and outer. I carried luggage a lot, from peoples cars to their cabins or tenting area and then in reverse. Which is all waaay more physical work than I do normally at home, anyone who knows me knows this to be true! So that in an of itself was a challenge. I also got to bond with some of the best people I've met in years, on said luggage crew, but also at the camp with those not on the luggage crew during meals, during early morning sadhana (and early is the truth, 3:45am, including chanting, a kundalini yoga set, another hour of singing/chanting a specific set of mantras in a specific order and then visiting the gurdwara to finish up), during white tantric yoga and many other activities.
The crux of the event is the 3 days of white tantric yoga. Previously I had only done one full day of the event in Chicago last April and one full day in Knoxville in October, both of which I had met people who were here for the the solstice event as well. 3 days is intense, to say the least, but is so much more than the one day in a myriad of ways. Each day was a different program, mostly sitting exercises, for 62 minutes or 31 minutes, one included a two hour nap, timed and a certain song played for it and the biggie; a 3 hour blind walk. Google it, I don't have the time or energy to explain it, just thinking about it is wearing me out! Ha!
All of this work affects you energetically and internally of course, and unfolds things within you over a 40 day period. I have quit drinking and eating most meats, and have been eating healthier and keeping up with a strong early morning sadhana of my own and hatha yoga and kundalini yoga almost daily, so that allows the energy movement to be freer and cleanse you of things no longer needed, subconsciously, much more easily. The time in April I still drank a bit and so wasn't as clean and had some major emotional goings on, to say the least. But this unfolding is interesting in that its intense but more smooth.
I feel like I'm completely changing and growing into a new person. My thoughts are moving in ways they never have before. They are more open, less judgmental and inclusive of things I never considered options before. I will be more specific on that once the unfolding slows down and I figure out exactly where I'm going in life. The thought of moving has always been there, but now I feel as if I'm finally ready. The idea of loving has always been there, but now I'm open to it and finding it around every corner from every person I encounter, just open hearted love and peace when met eye to eye. I feel more and more that I must share all this with others, and so exude the love and peace while I teach my hatha classes and am including some more of the kundalini type meditations to build the energy individually for my current students. I want them all to be happy and peaceful. I want to be more in touch with family and friends than ever before and just love them all unconditionally.
There is so much more swirling around in there, all good stuff, that I want to share but need more time to allow them to flow thru me first and figure some things out.
This year is amazing already, but is only going to get more amazing as it opens up and becomes more energized and free flowing and unlocks us more and more toward the Aquarian age. We are already feeling the intensity of the energy of that age unfolding all around us, within us, and hopefully I/we can all help one another as it builds more and more and grows us into who we really are---little balls of light wrapped up tight in these flesh packages. Little bits of divine energy! Look into peoples eyes, you will see it there, or not, that fire, those burning white irises, the color lightening, the intensity of their gaze.
Take a look at this little window a great friend of mine sent me on facebook, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3zJm98UXzQ , good stuff.
Think about it. But not too much, more importantly, feel it. Feel yourself and let those feeling unfold you into who you really are. Are you with me?!?
Sat Nam, Sat Inder Singh
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