Saturday, March 21, 2009

See the pot, not the paint

The above is a quote I shortened to this succinct statement. The full synopsis was written by Douglas Brooks in his Tantric interpretation of the Bhagavad Ghita. I'm not going to type out the complete quote because I think the shortened statement says it all.

The idea being that a pot is always the same pot it was even when you paint it blue. The blue is irrelevant because its the same clay pot underneath it. Meaning we are all the same underneath. Looking at it from a physical perspective we're all red blood, muscle tissue, veins, nerves and bones, no matter what color or how hairy or smooth or whatever the packaging looks like. I like to see it from a more metaphysical perspective, we're all casing for a soul. A soul, being a small piece of the larger divine, is always there floating around and commiserating with other souls until they decide to come into a body, then they are all just this physical ick and goo housing the soul. The soul being the animating factor to the physical body.

Since we're all the same, really, literally and figuratively why can't we all just get along. Yogi Bhajan is quoted as saying "if you can't see god in all, you can't see god at all." Sounds true to me, but it also sounds like a life of constant work. Most think of it as once you get enlightened or "get it," get the divine connection to our physicality, then the work is done. Not so, the work is never done as long as you are physical.

I imagine its why some yogis are known for just deciding their time is up and sitting down and leaving the body, which then passes on once it is no longer needed as housing for the spirit. They felt their message was spread as well as could be or they had taught as many as could hear them and they were no longer of use, so they left to continue their work in a non-physical form.

I like the idea of that. I have felt many times that I was uninspired at the time and how to get reinspired so that I could feel it necessary to keep teaching. Partly this is why I have sought out the teaching within the Kundalini Yoga tradition as taught by Yogi Bhajan. They connect me more to my spirit than any other thing I've ever found. Anusara comes close, but Anusara still feels too physically oriented to me. The philosophic teachings I've learned from John Friend, or Desiree or Douglas Brooks are amazing and I love and embrace them as my own but the breathwork and physical movements taught to me by thru my Kundalini practices complete make me know there is a spirit living in me and it is vital and wants to spread love and peace and joy, like nothing I've ever wanted before.

When you can feel as fucking awesome as I've been feeling lately, from a few moments of action and breath and from observing thought patterns and not allowing them to reach into that dark place they once felt so at home in, then you want to share it. Share it with anyone who will listen or try it or anyone who asks.

It also makes me want to embrace all forms of spiritual practice, whether I agree they feel spiritual or not, someone does and thats okay. Their connection is their connection and mine is mine, if they come to me for advice on how to connect I can show them my ideas of it, otherwise they follow their own path. Which is a new idea for me, once thinking the only way to find that yoking, or yoga, is the way I thought. So it may be a work in progress but it is one I'm now letting in. Let go and let god they say, right? lol

May the longtime sun shine upon you, all love surround you and the pure light within you guide your way on. Sat Nam!!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

chakras . . .

So, I'm having lots of trouble around my throat chakra. My sinuses have been draining intensely for over a week, but mostly manifesting in my throat, causing my voice to be hoarse, froggy or completely gone! (Some would not think this a bad think, lol).

So, I've done lots of kundalini, which has freed up my sinuses, cleared out and cloggy nose stuff. I've done some asana, which I do with ujjayi breath and that clears me out a lot too, maybe moreso than the shallow nostril breathing used in kundalini. And I've looked into myself a lot to see why on earth I may be manifesting this.

Kundalini yoga looks at the arms as an extension of the heart chakra and we've done lots of arms in class lately, and consequentely my heart has opened up a lot, but its tightened my shoulders, traps mostly and created a lot of heat in that area, and the throat stuff. SO that bumps into the throat chakra, which is looked on (when there is a problem in that area) as being someone not connecting their heart chakra to their throat chakra, thereby not speaking from their heart or not speaking their truth. I do think I am guilty of this. Most wouldn't believe it because I'm so bluntly honest most of the time, but that blunt honesty can also be a defense mechanism!

So my truth is changing and I'm not knowing where it is right now, so it seems hard to connect to that and speak it, you know? So I'm embracing the not knowing, the not having my finger completely on what destination to which I'm headed. Or at least I'm trying to embrace that! lol.

Abraham, whose teachings I've been completely working into my life (www.abraham-hicks.com) says that every cell in our body is a chakra. The heavy level of cells it takes to make up a gland in our systems just makes those areas more intense and heavy energetically, and therefor the Eastern focus on those areas. So maybe I need to not focus so much on just the throat or thyroid and parathyroid glands, maybe I just need to focus on liberating each cell, on its own and think of the space between them, which when you look at cells from a quantum perspective there are millions of miles between each one, even in the clustered areas such as our glands and organs. Think of it freeing up on a subatomic level, make each and every cell feel the energy travelling through it and around it.

Kundalini yoga works on your body on a cellular level, changing it as you pass thru a tough challenge, works on your third chakra (solar plexus), your commitment or willpower chakra. Strengthens it and opens it up. That area used to be my biggest problem and as I stick with it, I'm moving past it as a problem and thru the Anusara and kundalini yogas have opened up my heart chakra and now have moved up to the throat. And through figuring my truth out will also move past that area and free up everything and make myself a conduit for truth and energy in all its forms, and hopefully be able to use that to help all my students do the same for themselves.

I've done one kundalini class this morning and I think I'll go to the other one tonight at 5:30, in hopes that I am digging deeper into my issues and freeing them up via physical bodywork and energetic work and letting go of them. Letting go really is the key! When I was on Maui in 2002 studying ashtanga with one of the first Americans to learn the system from Guruji, K. Pattabhi Jois; Nancy Gilgoff, a girl staying with her, Betsy I believe, said to me just let go and love--thats all you need to know, just let go and let love come thru. Letting go, quit holding on to anything, to whatever we cling to to trick ourselves into believing makes us feel better, really is the key to freedom. Freedom in our bodies, freedom in our lives, freedom in our minds, freedom in our relationships, to others, to god, to the world, to whatever. Let go and let god as they say . . .

Sat Nam