chakras . . .

So, I'm having lots of trouble around my throat chakra. My sinuses have been draining intensely for over a week, but mostly manifesting in my throat, causing my voice to be hoarse, froggy or completely gone! (Some would not think this a bad think, lol).

So, I've done lots of kundalini, which has freed up my sinuses, cleared out and cloggy nose stuff. I've done some asana, which I do with ujjayi breath and that clears me out a lot too, maybe moreso than the shallow nostril breathing used in kundalini. And I've looked into myself a lot to see why on earth I may be manifesting this.

Kundalini yoga looks at the arms as an extension of the heart chakra and we've done lots of arms in class lately, and consequentely my heart has opened up a lot, but its tightened my shoulders, traps mostly and created a lot of heat in that area, and the throat stuff. SO that bumps into the throat chakra, which is looked on (when there is a problem in that area) as being someone not connecting their heart chakra to their throat chakra, thereby not speaking from their heart or not speaking their truth. I do think I am guilty of this. Most wouldn't believe it because I'm so bluntly honest most of the time, but that blunt honesty can also be a defense mechanism!

So my truth is changing and I'm not knowing where it is right now, so it seems hard to connect to that and speak it, you know? So I'm embracing the not knowing, the not having my finger completely on what destination to which I'm headed. Or at least I'm trying to embrace that! lol.

Abraham, whose teachings I've been completely working into my life (www.abraham-hicks.com) says that every cell in our body is a chakra. The heavy level of cells it takes to make up a gland in our systems just makes those areas more intense and heavy energetically, and therefor the Eastern focus on those areas. So maybe I need to not focus so much on just the throat or thyroid and parathyroid glands, maybe I just need to focus on liberating each cell, on its own and think of the space between them, which when you look at cells from a quantum perspective there are millions of miles between each one, even in the clustered areas such as our glands and organs. Think of it freeing up on a subatomic level, make each and every cell feel the energy travelling through it and around it.

Kundalini yoga works on your body on a cellular level, changing it as you pass thru a tough challenge, works on your third chakra (solar plexus), your commitment or willpower chakra. Strengthens it and opens it up. That area used to be my biggest problem and as I stick with it, I'm moving past it as a problem and thru the Anusara and kundalini yogas have opened up my heart chakra and now have moved up to the throat. And through figuring my truth out will also move past that area and free up everything and make myself a conduit for truth and energy in all its forms, and hopefully be able to use that to help all my students do the same for themselves.

I've done one kundalini class this morning and I think I'll go to the other one tonight at 5:30, in hopes that I am digging deeper into my issues and freeing them up via physical bodywork and energetic work and letting go of them. Letting go really is the key! When I was on Maui in 2002 studying ashtanga with one of the first Americans to learn the system from Guruji, K. Pattabhi Jois; Nancy Gilgoff, a girl staying with her, Betsy I believe, said to me just let go and love--thats all you need to know, just let go and let love come thru. Letting go, quit holding on to anything, to whatever we cling to to trick ourselves into believing makes us feel better, really is the key to freedom. Freedom in our bodies, freedom in our lives, freedom in our minds, freedom in our relationships, to others, to god, to the world, to whatever. Let go and let god as they say . . .

Sat Nam