Desiree Rumbaugh

The above mentioned is my Anusara teacher, my main Anusara teacher anyway. She is an amazing individual who has taught me how to figure myself out more than anyone else thus far.

She was in town this weekend and I got to spend the whole time learning more from her, discussing things at lunch and during class, demonstrating things for her in class and I feel inspired and completed, but also worn out. She is a tough one and you work hard in her classes to line up your body so that the spirit/energy, whichever or whatever you like to call it, can flow through the body with more ease.

The one thing I notice is that it builds up a lot of energy around my second chakra, the sexual center, which is fine and dandy but I am also doing a 40 day commitment to celibacy, no masturbation, nothing. That is for personal reasons, best explained at another time.

That said I don't need a lot of energy built up right there right now so I woke up this morning did my kundalini 11 minute 1000 day meditation then proceeded to do a kriya that is to balance the energy of the lower chakras with the upper chakras. So far, so good. It feels like its working and I feel better than I have in a long time!

I believe the Anusara has helped me learn how to open up my heart and let the energy and love both in and out, but the Kundalini is helping me to arrange the energy in my body where its most needed and when its most needed there. They are complimentary to one another for me and my life at this time. That may change but for now they are amazingly changing me for the better. I feel more love and am feeling that I am able to allow more love in, to receive it. Receiving it has always been a problem for me but hopefully not for much longer!

THIS is the year of change for me, I am embracing this as my life and using the tools that I've learned over the past 9 years to finally open myself up, my heart and my life. To experience everything more fully and more fully being to bring love into it and not just to emit the love but to also receive it from whomever is giving it.

If the age of Aquarius is truly in bloom and dawning at this very time and its all about love and releasing the habits or holdings on maybe(?) from the Piscean era, which was the me era, all about us, selfishness, to a selfless and loving existence count me in! I'm ready for it and am finally using the tools I've learned over the years to change and open up.

Sat Nam!