Full Moon . . .

I've been having a bout of feeling unlike myself, I'm not quite sure who I was feeling like though, but I just know instinctively that it wasn't me. But starting this week, and especially today I realized that I am feeling myself again.

In fact, and I'll just blame on the moon right now, I'm feeling very much in anticipation of new things coming about. I'm also feeling a bit restless and frustrated that these new things haven't come around already, but the anticipation is the fun part anyway, so its all good.

I really think I keep saying its all good because one day I may actually believe it lol.

I've been feeling my practice a lot lately, meaning, that I'm feeling my body in a deeper way lately, much deeper than I have in a while, so its opening up again, finally. I also am feeling my elbows, and shoulders. Not pain at all, but just feeling them. Like this morning, I was going through primary series and I've been stopping at the point when I can't complete a pose, which is Marichasana D, intending the follow the way this practice is taught and relearn it one pose at a time, the way I did back in 2000-2008, when I had gotten up through about 1/3 of the third series. But I digress, so this morning I got to that point, Marichi D, and was feeling my elbows in a major way, there is a nerve cluster there that I'm sure is super stimulated by all the vinyasa in this practice. So I decided to get as deep into it as I could and then go ahead and finish the primary series anyway. And as I got further past Marichi D the sensation in my elbows dissipated. It was nice.

Tomorrow is a full moon, and it may actually be totally full now, so no ashtanga practice in the morning. I'm going to just sleep in until I get up and see what I feel like doing, maybe some pranayama and meditation, maybe a kundalini set, maybe just lying there for a long time! lol. So I'll have to see how my practice works again on Tuesday, and will let you know.

I finally emailed Kino Macgregor's people about bringing her to St. Louis, and think its going to happen, but we'll see. There'll be a lot of work to be done around it once I find out if she's even interested and available anytime soon. That will be cool, but also I'm planning to attend the Ashtanga Confluence in San Diego in February, maybe go to see Kino in March in Michigan where some friends are, then again seeing her in June in Chicago, and then also seeing Mark Robberds in Chicago in September. PLUS, I want to go to Barcelona to visit my friend Julia, and theres a weekend in there that David Robson will be there teaching an Ashtanga weekend, so thats a possibility too. I'll buy the Confluence ticket first, then Spain, then the rest will follow that.

So, possibly a lot going on next year! But what I'm feeling right now is anticipation of these things, so that means other things will be coming up before then, bigger classes, lots of income, great friends, maybe a relationship popping up (god, I said it didn't I? fuck...).

Yes, I said it. I think I'm ready for a relationship. Not saying I want to "go steady" with someone, whatever that means. But I would like to have someone special, I think, even if its an open relationship. Someone I enjoy and who enjoys me and someone attractive for gods sake lol.

So, thats said, now no more about it, please.

Anyhow, have you noticed how emotional everyone is these days? Yes? Of course, because they are, you and me included. So, lets use this yoga and allow it to help up calm these emotions, feel them, but let them not control us, but us them.

How about it? Sounds good to me. Seems like I had a whole other plan of what I was going to write, but here is what came out. You never know, and neither do I! lol, see you soon folks, much love and peace to you all.

After practice glow...

So I've just showered after my practice and a full session of pranayama, which makes me high usually but today balanced out my practice beautifully.

I'm sitting here wasting time so I can go the bank first thing after they open at 9am, someone decided they would use my card last night to check into a motel and the fraud people called me because I had made many purchases yesterday and none of them from this location, so they thought something was up. I'm thankful for that, but now I have to go get a new card and put in the paperwork to have the money they spent credited back into my account. Not a super huge deal, especially since I'm off most of the day today, so again I appreciate that they caught it so quickly!

Last night I was a bit more livid about it and even probably had it so much in my mind that it woke me up at 3:30 this morning and I've been up since, which is odd because I was commenting on someones facebook status about them getting up so early to practice saying that I used to always because that was when Pattabhi told me to do my practice. So this morning I got to test that again, since I was up so early I started practice, mind you not at 3:30, but at 4:30.

So my theory is this, at that time of the morning, which I've been getting up for 12 years, but now I just take my time getting to my practice, say at 5 or 6, rather than beginning sharply at 4am, we haven't really had time to let our minds get in the way and restrict our bodies, so our bodies, after the initial stiffness from sleep wears off are able to take more and go further, not from being warmed like at all as they are later in the day, but from lack of mental resistance. Where we believe our bodies can go, and therefore they stop there rather than loosen up and move deeper into a posture. I like it, as an experiment I may try moving my practice back up this early to see how it works for a while, but we'll see! lol, I like the later time in my old age !!! lol...

It most certainly is easier to be more meditative at this time I've found and I love that, thats more the focus these days than the acrobatics, although my body feels awesome after a good session for sure.

Another thing on my mind is moving. I've lived here since July of 2011 and love the apartment, but outside the apartment is lacking lately. The neighborhood has gotten worse, even though I've not had any personal things happen since the spring, someone broke into the laundromat below me and tore it up, also shitting in a couple of the machines and my neighbor had his truck broken into, so not ideal. Although staying here would be easy, and its cheap. I have a couple friends who've made some offers for renting space from them, so we'll see, if you have any good ideas let me know!

Well, I guess I'll go get dressed and head to the bank, thanks for keeping me company while I wasted time this morning. I'll try to get back on the blogging more frequently. I do have a lot on my mind that could use being released but haven't figured out words for a lot of it yet! Enjoy your day, namaste...