So here it goes, I have no idea what I want to write, just that I want to write.
There is much going on in my mind lately, should I add a class here? there? should I drop this class? should I quit teaching and just get a job and focus on my practice? (decided no on that one btw, I really hate everything except teaching yoga) should I move? do I really want to move with the fact that I want to go back to India in the fall and don't want a lease to worry about? should I move to a whole other state? or country? should I go live in a cave and say fuck society? what should I do with myself????
I really don't know. India kinda fucked me up. Not in a bad way at all, but in a way that made me know I've been complacent in the design of my future, so I need to figure out what I want to do with myself.
Ok, I know I want to focus on teaching Ashtanga Yoga, it is amazing and has changed my life. I know it can be applied as a therapeutic practice, a challenging practice, a workout, a deep, deep way to connect to ones inner self. So, I want to teach Mysore style, yes that I do... I add on one Mysore style class Sunday mornings, its been going for 4 weeks and is doing very well, for a brand new class especially.
I love this style of teaching. So I like teaching some other classes that are led so that people can get that as well, the breath count, the sequence, all of that, but Mysore style is it.
I really, really want to go back to India for two months in the fall/winter to study further with Sharath, possibly take an extra couple weeks to go north and see the Ganga and the Himalayas, both of which I'm drawn to desperately, they over there say I've lived there in another life.
So, I've started the moving forward in life, and I'm okay with that for now but am still in the mood for more and more and more. More what? More teaching right now, adding on a few more classes would be good for me so if you know of any place, let me know! lol, Also, maybe more in other areas too. Maybe explore some dating? Maybe going on a few more trips than usual? Maybe, maybe, maybe...
Maybe a lot of things. I'm open and want to see what it is that my little heart desires, join me for the ride?
