Spring redux

One thing thats occurred to me just now about that last post. That last post is also a perfect example of what I mean by being stuck in the mud. Meaning dealing with those lower emotions or lower chakra emanations rather that coming at it from a higher chakra level reinforces the idea to me of how hard it is in this area to stay in the more positive or neutral aspects of life.

Feeling those feelings of attachment, which are really my mothers issues and not mine, some that I usurped from her over the course of living with her and her ideas of men and how they are, based solely on my fathers behaviour towards her and other women, have nothing to do with me.

Someone I've just met shouldn't have to deal with my mothers issues manifesting my mind and being enacted in his direction, he's a clean slate. And this one in particular is a highly evolved individual and deserves to not have me worried and acting selfishly or should I say self-preservatively (is that a phrase?) when he has done absolutely nothing to enact my danger sense. Other than being an old-fashioned, loving, heart opened gentleman toward me he in fact hasn't been less than perfect.

So in fact its time to approach this relationship from a higher level, higher chakras, heart, throat and third eye. From an enlightened perspective than from a base level perspective, fighting for whats mine, or what should be mine or what I think should be mine when in fact, nothing is mine and everything is mine.

We are all manifestations of a divinity that we can only chance to understand and hope and pray to emulate even in the slightest bit. So why not act like it?

I think its brilliant that I've been such a fuck-up at relationships all my life due to holding onto my mothers belief system of men, so what does the universe do to move me to the next level? It sends me a man, who is just a man, but whom is also attractive to me on my animalistic levels and whom is attractive to me on my upper chakra levels. Someone who is highly evolved and in different ways than I am that I can build off of and learn my lessons from, someone who will challenge me and make me grow, but someone who also will be challenged by me and not run from it but will grow from the challenge.

Hmmm, I like the sound of it and will stay on top of my work in the situation, I hope! lol.

Sat Nam!