Destruction...

Most people when they think of destroying things they think of it in a bad way. Maybe that's just a Western way of thinking about it, I don't know. But when you encounter India they worship more than a few gods who are known for destruction.

You can say well why would that be? And then the answer would be many things, depending on who you talk to. One way I found to look at it that I heard a while back but probably didn't understand until recently is that it's the destruction of the things that are no longer serving you. You could say your old habits or patterns, old parts of yourself (mental ideas, not physical parts, or are they the same thing?!?).

There are so many ways to look at it. But since my main source of inspiration and energy, or who I worship if you will, is Kali and Shiva, both known for destroying or tranforming things, I embrace this energy as a daily part of my life. And that can seem good or bad depending on how one looks at it.

I see it as good, it keeps the old stuff cleaned out and allows space for the new stuff all the time. Even if I keep old things, such as thoughts or memories or maybe even friendships/relationships, it allows for me to constantly grow and look at them in new ways and from new angles. Seeing new energy or the old patterns in it that needs to be allowed to move on therefor allowing new energy to flow in is a big part of my life.

I am often told as I was today by a student, that what I bring to the table is the ability to shake things up and when stirring the pot you allow the chaff to float to the surface and then skim it off. So then this would be why my student base was never terribly high. I constantly am sifting through for the gold pieces, rather than cultivating the fools gold and trying to sell it as real gold. Metaphorically, of course. So if you don't understand what I'm saying here you have to ask in person, I'll explain better then.

I can't wait to set up my own Mysore program where I feel I can completely be as me as possible and just teach and let people come who will, see if they're commitment friendly and go forward with them, helping them grow and change as I grow and change or leave if they cannot handle it and not be mean but be supportive that they will find what they need out there and save that space for more of the ones who are ready for transformation.

Maybe we are always meant to be tranforming ourselves, never sticking in one place. Always a glob of energy morphing and shifting between colors, shapes, sizes, thickness, thinness, clothing, lack of clothing... Always being stuck back into the washing machine to be cleaned again the next morning, and then again and again, getting cleaner and cleaner in different ways, or dirtier in new ways and finding the balance between the dirt and grime and cleaning it up too often or not.

God, where am I going here. I have a lot of thoughts here and they are not bad or good, but I think you get the point? If you don't that's okay too, but if you do give me a holler, let me know how you embrace or embody this in your life, or maybe you don't. Let's talk about it, I'm interested...