I myself have not been feeling so good lately. Not feeling badly either, just neutral. Neutral is like death, there is no energy pulling through you at all and in order to have that you must feel inspired, excited, drawn to do something.
But for months now, since I had to move shortly after arriving home from India probably, I've felt neutral. I love teaching Ashtanga and am doing it in the way that I love to teach it and there are many who are enjoying that along with me, even though it is much more intense than they knew it would be. So that part of my life is fulfilling, but for some time now I've felt there is more. More what I don't know. But I had a glimpse of it this past Saturday and a few other times but this time I recognized it for what it was.
I taught the park class in the morning and many loved it and it clicked with them, so I heard that a lot which is great. I spent time with some interesting and new people to me who were putting new thoughts in my head about life and how it's to be lived and the adventure that it can be. Then I taught a workshop that was well received and the students who took it seemed to get what I was teaching and are now able to apply these things to their practice. Then the next day I realized, after spending another day teaching Mysore and chanting, but also spending a lot of it with my students, that this type of connection was what I'm looking for on a bigger scale. Not saying I want hundreds of followers, but saying like minded individuals that can support and care for one another as we move through this practice and how it affects our lives, because no one else really gets it the way that we do, well because they aren't doing this practice.
That led me to think of the many people I've met in Mysore and how close I feel to them even though I don't see them daily or speak to them all that much, so I sent a few messages and chatted with a few people. Then today we found out that Sharath is going to open this season and the date, and when we'll need to apply to get in and so much excitement came over me that my morning practice almost cruised by and seemed simple and easy, then later in the day all the messages I received made me feel even more excited because this group is also excited and this means we will all get to be with one another again and in only 5 months, if we all get in.
So, I know Abraham says you should be able to maintain this kind of feeling all the time without external circumstances being the cause of it but that we've all been trained to look to the external to keep us feeling good, so it's a new training we have to do with ourselves to get to the place that it's possible. I say that it is possible because I've been there much of the time in my life recently. Ok because I chose to be, feeling good because I chose the thoughts that led me there and didn't allow the ones that typically drag me down to do so. But sometimes, just sometimes that community spirit is alright too I think. If you can't do it on your own utilizing those who are like you and know your inner strength to help lift your spirits is just okay too. Not that Abraham would disagree but they just encourage us to be self sufficient and strong. I'm happy I've found their teachings for sure, it's changed my life, but I'm also happy that I've found a great group of people in my life, both locally and worldwide that can inspire me and help me stay higher up in my vibration.
So, I'm feeling pretty good today. Teaching this morning a great group was inspiring and helped me stay there and I chatted with a few of those great friends during the day today and I just finished a really great show on Netflix, so moving from inside to out in the feeling good arena is a pretty great and I'm glad I'm able to access that, but also when your inner being isn't feeling so amazing, using the outside to stimulate better feeling thoughts that lead to better feeling emotions that lead you to generally feeling good is okay as well.
So, how are you feeling? Can you make a choice to feel better and follow through with it? No? Then wanna hang out? Maybe I can help...
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