Conference...

This mornings conference has a lot of points that I'm still processing. I am so inspired by Sharath, he uses humour very well within all of his seriousness, I can only hope I emulate that in even the tiniest bit.

Someone asked this morning about how can they know which are the right impulses and which are the wrong ones to follow. I divert to the Abraham teachings often for this, saying that when it feels good it lined up with source, when it feels icky it is lined up less so with source. But sometimes things feel equally as good, so how then do you choose? Maybe this is what he was asking. It feels good to go hang out with your friends sometimes, even though you know you have to get up early and do your sadhana, so do you sacrifice your sadhana or do you sacrifice hanging out with your friends? Just an example of something I've thought of a few times this past year.

I tend to always say no, I have to get up early, but this past summer after spending time in Mysore last winter and spring, once I was home again I had a deeper feeling for the friends that I have, for my family as well. So a few times, maybe three, I stayed up late. A couple of the times I slept in a bit and still did my practice, once I didn't do the asana part but still was able to do pranayama and chanting, so felt pretty okay with it.

So maybe it's not always a black or white area, but a grey area and it has to be decided upon each individual situation. Well, of course that is the case. You can have a blanket policy but sometimes its good to break it just to remind you why you have it, but also good to break it to deepen a connection to some people whom you enjoy having in your life.

I'm going home two weeks from tomorrow and am thinking a lot about home and how things will roll once I get there. How it rolls, of course, I cannot really worry about until I'm there and see how things fall. I'm really excited about some aspects of going home, starting a new Mysore program at a friends new and expanded studio, starting another Intro series at another friends studio and cafe, working with the students who have been coming and supporting me in this new part of my life which involves me being gone for months at a time to India and whom I love very much, but also working with new students and how to connect this time honored lineage with them...etc. But I am also sad because working with Sharath is amazing and I feel a deep connection to him and to that big room full of other people doing their practice all at the same time and how we flow and synchronize our practices to disturb each others space as little as possible.

But I also am thinking a lot about primary series and Sharath talked a lot about it this morning and in the past few conferences. I have learned over the course of these three months to love the primary series and not fiend for the postures in the intermediate that I so longed for. At one point I had so much pain in my SI joint that I thought I'd for sure quit this practice and teaching and go get a job at Starbucks once back home, but then once it got fixed I saw how the primary series heals and has strengthened my body so much, so that that strength flows from the inside, from the spirit, not from the physical. I now feel this deep, internal strength that I hadn't felt in a long time, if ever before in this exact way. So, primary series is good, I'm happy with it and love teaching it and seeing how it's helping all these other at home.

Anyhow,I've much more integration time from this mornings words before I'll be able to write any more, but here is where I am right now.

Have a great day friends!