Its 68 degrees outside on this January day and I spent most of it outside, I did teach a class and take a class both indoors but most of the rest of it I was at the park, took a nap there and read most of the day in the loveliness of the day.
I'm waiting to do a private in about half an hour and decided to write. I've been full of inspiration lately but haven't coagulated most of it into cohesiveness yet, so not sure if any of it will come out in this entry tonight.
New years was crappy, I got sick in the middle of class, didn't show it, but basically slept and shit for the next 36 hours and had a friend bring me vegetable juices and fruit which was about all I could fathom eating. I kept it up too, eating only fruit in the mornings, until this past couple days. But I need to maintain it I think so that I can enjoy the energy levels it inspires. I tend to eat too many carbs, in the form of bread products, and then I feel sluggish and wonder why. Today I had a doughnut and took a class later in the day and had all this anger come out, not from the doughnut, but I'm sure it didn't help matters at all.
I'm also as of this week calling it quits on my Mysore classes. I gave it another go round and it still didn't work, nice showing at first, then it slowly drops off. People here in St. Louis just don't love Ashtanga the way I do, there are a few of us, but we're all teachers and we want to share what we love, but the people just don't want it. Especially the Mysore style, which is my favorite, but oh well. Lamenting won't make them want it.
I shall just practice it myself and teach what I can teach of it when I teach and go from there. I also really want to go to India this fall and have that experience, that will also hopefully inspire me to move somewhere after I get back, somewhere that maybe loves Ashtanga and I can share it there. But I have some privates that I'm teaching it to and can go from there. Its my thing, and practicing it makes me happy, so I'm sticking with it!
I've also been practicing kundalini a bit more again, since I was ill it just seemed like it would help me manage my energy better and it has. So I've been doing both, and I love them!
These practices are helping make me more aware all the time, and then just when I think I can't become anymore present, I find a new level. I love it, even when I'm bitching and saying how I hate it, I'd rather be the one who is practicing and working toward something than not...so I embrace it!!!
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