Focus

Funny, I wrote on commitment not too many entries ago and that equates as focus as well, to me anyway. So I've committed to the ashtanga practices, the teachings of K. Pattabhi Jois, again, because they've worked for me for years and now I feel like I've come home, sigh of relief. The funny thing is, and its really not so funny, its exactly what I believe and teach all the time, what you focus on and put energy into, will come to you full force if you're pure in your vibration about it. So here I've committed and now the whole universe is conspiring to get me teaching ashtanga again full time, I've got offers coming from every angle to teach classes at all sorts of locations and teach workshops locally all based on ashtanga, well, most of them anyway, and my schedule is changing to include some Mysore style classes finally, and a couple more led classes. And last Saturday I taught it at the park and had the largest number ever, 216 people showed up for class! That was awesome, and crazy at the same time, but I loved it and I feel blessed. I've put in the work, and finally after 11 years I lined up with what I wanted and now I'm getting it. Its awesome in the extreme. I love my life. On that note, many of my friends in the Kundalini yoga world are on their way to Summer Solstice, an event started by Yogi Bhajan 40 years ago, and it is an extreme experience for sure, transforming and wonderful, all at the same time. But I am not going, I am staying here to continue this work that feels so right right now and I'm seeing changes in my students and in myself from the teaching and the practice. But at the same time, I will miss the extreme experience, and the comradery with all the people I've grown so close with over the past three years, they are a wonderful bunch. Especially Ranjeet Kaur, a lovely person to be friends with, and to work with. Yes, at this event we work, and hard too. One of the pros of me not going! lol Anyhow, my friendships are shifting as well, along with everything else. Someone I felt I was closer to than anyone else has dumped my as a friend, blocked me on Facebook and a few other things, all to date a girl he broke up with three times already, since she hates me and my being gay, thinking he's going to want to suck my cock or be with me in some way. But I can't concern myself with her silliness, he was my friend, and loved me and I him, but has given in to this persons demand to no longer be my friend just to be with her, so maybe we were never truly friends in the first place, I don't know about you but I couldn't do that to someone I'm close to. Not just that, I really didn't mean to go on about that situation, but other people I'm feeling distant from, and others still that have surprised me, I'm feeling closer to and spending more time with. Just following the vibration I'm offering, I know, but its always still interesting to observe these things. I'm feeling very internalized this week, from my practice and in that space have been spending more time with just me, or with others who are that way a lot too. So teaching has been interesting, because it requires me to come outside, a bit, or for a bit, if not longer. I'm so loving teaching lately though that its amazing. OH, speaking of that, I taught the students this morning into such a deep state that one of them hit my car! lol. Its fine but the door is blocked from opening very wide now, so it will need to be fixed. I've been focusing on teaching to the needs of the students in my Align and Flow classes but using the Primary series to do so, so thats been interesting as well, to see how adaptable it is and how it can affect each different application of it so fully and in so many different ways! I know, I shouldn't be surprised after practicing it for more than a decade, but I am, mostly because coming to it this time, I'm in a different space energetically and and seeing it from a whole different perspective. Hmmm, good metaphor for life huh? You can't do the same thing over and over and expect different results, or as my practice has proved, coming to it from a different place in my being is proving to have amazing results too! Love and peace all, hope you're enjoying your lives as much as I am mine, if not more!