Teacher Training, weekend 3

So, we're supposed to pick a 40 day practice and journal about it.

After the 2nd weekend I had some old patterns of thought come out, quite a bit, and found a kriya in the level 2 book, Transformation, called the Brain Doctor. Its a crazy bunch of exercises, that leaves me feeling awesome and has helped balance out any stuff I feel coming up, seems to regulate me so I can think about it and let it go, before acting on it! lol

Last week before I found it, I was having lots of mental crap go on that I took out on a couple people, and it felt really bad after the fact. Even after finding it on Friday I had a whole full of ugliness in my thoughts and was even an hour late to teacher training because of what I allowed to happen due to the thinking patterns I found last week.

What I discovered when I got there was that I felt disconnected from the group because they had already started the checking in process, but found that when I woke up the next morning, I felt connected and peaceful and amazing. Just being in the ashram does that for me though, its such a supportive, loving place.

So I skipped part of sadhana to get my 40 day kriya completed and then joined them for most of the chanting and gurdwara and breakfast. It ended up being an awesome day, that made me realize I have these people for a suppport system, we're all going through it together and can talk to one another and share and become closer and closer.

I love the group of folks that I'm going thru this with, they are a great bunch of people, full of diversity, peace and love. We're all different and yet finding ourselves so much the same as we all have stuff pulled out of us and have to deal with it.

I find that this is going to be one of the biggest things in my life and as I'm living the teachings I see changes in the people around me, or rather maybe I am seeing them through new eyes?

A Facebook friend who is also a Sikh just reminded me that the Siri Guru Granth Sahib states over and over again how we are all divine, or god if you like. He was saying it in support to me being the only out and proud Sikh he knows, but I'm saying in support of everyone around me, including myself.

We're all divine. Yogi Bhajan said in a lecture I just watched last night, there is no god, we are god. Everyone and everything is god. Wow, I know this, I actually do know this and it seems to be time I started living as if I know it. And so, off into my day to express my life looking at everyone as god, that same god that lives in me, in you, and in everyone.

This is the time and we are the ones we've been waiting for!